Please Let Me Have a Little World

Please,my dear ,be so generous as to let me have a little world of my own.If you find me scrawling on a piece of paper, please don't peep over my shoulders.It may be that I'm venting some pent-up feelings,long dennied expression,or trying to compose a little poem not yet presentable for a time being,or attempting to sketch out something visualized fron mychildhood memories which glowsing my minf like a rainbow.When I am in such a mood,Please leave me along and let me write as the pen dictates. Don’t disturb me, my dear, when I get nostalgic over some old photos or letters which bring tears to my eyes or smiles on my lips, for those were things that had happened to me before I met you, the joys and sorrows, partings and reunions that taste like green olive or glitter like scattered pearls. They are my cherished memories which, ready as I am to share with you, I would like to indulge in by myself for a while.

I hope you won’t mind when I go without you for a nice chat with a close friend of mine. You are my bosom friend, but you cannot take the place of other friends any more than they can do yours. I need their care, encouragement and sobering criticism just as I do yours. A starless sky with a solitary moon would be dull and cheerless, why not let there be a moonlit night resplendent with twinkling stars.

I may occasionally want to make a tour of faraway places. Please don’t hold me back when I start picking for it. You are the center of my life, but certainly not the whole of it. I yearn to see the mysteries and wonders of the world miles away beyond the mountains; So let me have a chance to explore my “Alice’s Wonderland” as a “lone ranger”. Some time later when I come back to you with exotic experiences and fresh insights, I’m sure you will look at me in a new light.

My dear , so long as you let me have such a little, little world, I’ll be very much indebted to you.

給我一個小小的世界

親愛的男朋友，請大度地給我一個小小的世界。當你發現我在紙上胡涂亂寫的時候，請不要在我身后窺視。我或許在發泄某種壓抑在心中長期未訴說的情緒，或是在設法構思一首暫時還羞于見人的小詩，或是在試圖勾勒某件依然在我腦際像彩虹般閃著光彩的童年往事。或是處于這樣的心境時，請別管我，請讓我信筆馳騁。

當我對著昔日的照片和書信沉思、垂淚或微笑，懷舊之情油然而生的時候，我親愛的，請不要打擾我。因為那些照片和書信記錄著我遇到你之前所經歷的一些事兒 ----那些悲歡離合如同青色的橄欖一樣酸澀，像散落的珍珠閃閃發光。這些是珍藏于我心中的回憶，盡管我愿意和你共同分享，但我還是想獨自沉浸與這些往事中，品味一番，細數一陣。

當我一個人出去同我的一位摯友聊天時，希望你不要介意。你是我的知己，但你不能代替我的其他朋友，正像我需要你這么做一樣。沒有星星點綴而只有月亮高懸的夜空多么清寂，請讓我擁有一個群星閃耀、月光皎潔、交相輝映的美好夜空吧!